doctor visit

Waiting for welfare is the worst. I didn't go to the building early, I waited until 2:00 when I was already outside doing stuff. If you show up in the morning...forget about it. It's like, mad busy. I'm so glad that I don't have to re-apply again this year. Actually I do, but I'm only getting $10 now, so duh, like I know next time around I'll be getting zero dollars. It sucks. But maybe this is a sign that I'm moving up, that I can kiss this part of my life behind. You know, I doubt it. But every year when my SSI goes up, my rent goes up and every two years as a result my food stamp amount goes down. I don't care. There's like, so many people crowded into that building all the time. Oh yuch. I went to the doctor's today 'cause everytime I swallow my throat hurts and I've got somewhat of a cold with it. I don't feel miserable but everytime I swallow it's painful. The doctor said it was allergies and prescribed me two meds. I've become somewhat of a regular at my clinic. Yeah, I hate waiting around, but I want the staff to become familiar with my face. I've got to watch it though, the way my insurance is I might run out of visits. I just want my doctor and nurse practicioner to become used to me coming in. I'm not abusing the system; I've got legitimate complaints. I just don't want to become just a number to them. Lord knows that's how I am to most other people. I so want to be important. I want to be special. I want to be loved. I want to be included. I can't get that type of satisfaction down here. I don't know why God's waiting forever to raise me up.