Ode to Mami

I didn't want to do this
It's stupid!
I love you, mami
I love to hear the sound of your voice
when I call you on the phone
when you're angry at me I cringe,
wondering why you have to be so pissed
I know it's me.
I used to play dumb on purpose,
but now it's permanent
and I can't reverse it.
I know God did this to me,
or I did it to myself;
I should've stayed in school
so none of this would've happen
I loved when we both were young
and we used to bake stuff in the kitchen;
cookies, cakes.
Now we don't do that stuff
that much anymore.
Have you gotten lazy,
or is it just old age?
I wouldn't say you're that old, mami
You still have you're health;
mine's falling apart.
Sometimes I get so frustrated
because I wonder why you want to clean
so much when I just want to take it easy.
I love you, mami!
I wish we could do more fun stuff together.
In heaven we will do lots of fun stuff
there. (maybe some cakes?)
Can't wait to see you then
I love you, mami.

Okay, why did I write this like I'm going to die tonight? I don't know, this is what just came out of me. I'll be here for a long time, I think. I'm pretty sure! I'm not excited about it, I'm just saying.