God, I'm hurting! Why do I have to have such a major mental illness? I was moaning when the doctor told me what I had! Something's telling me look forward to volunteering at the animal shelter, like I might meet somebody there. The orientation is the first Sunday of the month, so in May I'll go. I just want to die. Why can't God kill me? God, I don't care about my stupid life! I just want to die! God, I fucking hate you! I just want to die! God, if you don't kill me I'll hate you for the rest of my life. I just hate you! I want to die! God I hate you; I hate you for giving me life. I want to die and you're saying no? I hate you so fucking much you jackass retard! Fuck you! I hate you motherfucker! God, why are you doing this to me? I'm supposed to love you but you're making me your enemy. I just can't stand that other people get to die but I have to be alive day after day. I should've worked harder to kill myself when I was younger. I just can't stand what God is doing to me. God, I'm just hurting and you're doing nothing to help me. What kind of God are you? I hate Mariah Carey. She can sing and she's better looking than I am. I'm so dark. I wish I could be lighter skinned like my brother.
2 comments on In Painful Sh#!
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liveforthemusic
said 2 years ago
Calm down, honey. Don't think like that. You don't want to die, you're just going through a tough time. God isn't out to hurt you. The power invested in thee is never meant to hurt you. God gives you life, God guides you through life, but only you have the power to calm down and revise your life, and hopefully fix whatever's bugging you. Good luck with everything, let me know if you need to talk about anything. [WINK]
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liveforthemusic
said 2 years ago
Thanks for the comment. Good luck to you too. [THUMBUP]
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