words coming back to haunt me (I'm worried) II

I feel awful because I wrote about my parents and soon they're going to find out about my other side. Mommy, daddy, I'm sorry! All the time I was writing I was like, "this is fun, I'm getting my anger out, I'm getting revenge." But now I'm thinking how everything I've written will affect you guys. I'll die with tears in my eyes and the words "I'm sorry" on my lips. This is something I can't shake, seeing the heartache of my parents over what I've written about them. You guys just irked me is all and I needed an outlet. Please bury me on a Caribbean island where I can enjoy the air and have the tranquility and silence to reflect upon my life. If you put a bench near my grave I'll be sitting there, waiting for visits, and I won't be alone. I'll be surrounded by the love of an army of spirits, and they'll only leave me alone when stuff gets emotional between us. Look, I had bitterness towards you guys while I was on earth, but just remember this: in heaven there is no hate, anger or bitterness, so every angry thought I harbored towards you guys is no more. My hardened heart has been replaced with a soul overflowing with love, and as soon as you allow me to be forgiven, I'll bestow all of it upon you.

Mommy! Daddy! Thanks for all you've done for me, the money, the gifts, oh only in heaven will I be able to tell you how much I love you both!